Yesterday, as I lay in bed with a million “to-dos” swirling around my head, I felt anxious, overwhelmed, and – quite honestly – defeated. This morning, I dragged myself out of bed, laced up my bright purple running shoes, strapped on my Nike+ Running-enabled phone, and hit the pavement. The miles were long and slow, but the prayers that I said during that time were sincere and heartfelt. I would love to say that I felt completely prepared to take on the day after my run, but I didn’t. I still faced it with some apprehension and with the feelings of overwhelm and inadequacy and imposter syndrome symptoms that are always brewing below the surface. I was, however, just a bit lighter, just a bit less apprehensive, just a bit less overwhelmed and insecure than when I started my run – and certainly less than when I tossed and turned in my bed the night before.
I am trying my best to begin to let go of these feelings of overwhelm and inadequacy that plague my days as a wife, as a mother, and as a scholar. It’s not going to happen overnight, but I know that if stick with it, if I keep getting up and moving, if I keep showing up to make the kids breakfast and to be present when they need me throughout the day, if I keep plugging along with my reading, writing, analyzing, teaching; and if I keep praying for the strength and courage to truly let go, I will find peace, joy, and freedom.
Today, on this second Tuesday of the month, I realized that this is what Tuesdays are for me:
- Tuesdays are for getting out of bed and moving
- Tuesdays are days for making lists
- Tuesdays are forchecking items off of those lists
- Tuesdays are for being glad that Monday is over
- Tuesdays are for being relived that there are still 3 more work days to get the work done this week
- Tuesdays are for catching up on your prayer time that you neglected on Monday
- Tuesdays are for reeling in all the overwhelm and anxiety that plague Monday
This post was inspired by Emily Freeman’s take on #itssimplytuesday. As as I sat at my desk this afternoon, I realized that my Tuesday at 4:30pm felt phenomenally better than my Monday at the same time, so I decided to reflect on the differences of the lived experiences of days of the week. Perhaps I’ll write about Wednesdays tomorrow.
What are Tuesdays to you? I’d love to hear about it in the comments. Also, consider joining Emily’s #itssimplytuesday on instagram to share all of the delightful things that Tuesdays are to you. Emily actually has a book coming out at the end of this summer entitled Simply Tuesday that I can’t wait to read.